Before starting accutane, my skin was my biggest insecurity of my life. I have always had acne throughout high school, but once I hit college, the hormonal acne hit me hard. Not only did I get acne in places that it’s expected, but I got acne on my back, all over my face, and even my jaw line. My acne did not consist of a simple pimple that stayed on the surface. They were deep, red, and painful.
Throughout the beginning of college, I finally went to a dermatologist. No one understood the pain and embarrassment I went through and would constantly prescribe me topical cream when I knew that all I wanted was to go on accutane. Moving forward, the topical creams would never work. My skin would just get even more irritated and red than it was before. The process was never simple and I was always told to wear an uncomfortable cream under my makeup, daily. And as for a girl, this definitely isn’t easy especially when makeup is the only tool we have to cover our acne in the first place. I remember having to put makeup on before the gym, and sometimes got so lazy and wouldn't care what others thought of my skin. I would go to class bare-faced knowing that my skin looked like a disease. I felt like a walking virus and hanging out with friends or going on dates with guys was terrifying because I knew that everyone would just be looking at my skin. Luckily, with the support of my parents, they finally agreed to allow me to try accutane. At this moment, I knew my life would change for the good and it did, literally. I remember my first appointment like it was yesterday. I choose abstinence as my form of birth control and would have to get my blood drawn every month. After my results came back negative every month, I then was able to speak with my doctor as he would prescribe me my meds. When I took my first pill, I was patiently waiting for it to kick in because of how excited I was! Slowly but surely, the first side effect I noticed was absolutely no oil on my face! I remember how amazing my makeup looked because it wouldn’t move for hours or look shiny. I wanted the whole world to see my face! My self-confidence slowly progressed and soon enough, my top complement was, “your skin is looking so good!” Students that I have never talked to in my life would even come up to me and compliment me on my skin. My smile throughout these months got brighter and bigger than ever, because I felt as if I finally defeated my insecurity. As for other side effects from accutane, not once did I experience depression, mood swings, or suicidal thoughts. I felt absolutely amazing on the medication and the only bad side effect out of all six months was the dry hands and lips. Out of everyone’s accutane experience stories, I truly believe that I reacted flawlessly to the pill and my experience could not have been any better.
In conclusion, accutane changed my life in the greatest way possible. When I wake up in the morning, I feel and look like a million bucks. After this whole experience I could never wish acne upon my worst enemy because I know how much that hurt my confidence and being able to live my life to the fullest every day. No one will ever know the struggle of acne and how much it can do to a person unless they’re the ones who are experiencing it. I don’t think I have ever loved myself more than I do right now and I have never felt this good in my own skin for as long as I can remember.