Had a Nose Job at 20 Years Old and This is My Experience
My name is Tayla Mouwad, I'm 23 and from Sydney, NSW. I come from a background of bullying and teasing throughout my primary and high school years and one of the main targets for my bullying was because of my ‘weird nose’. Both boys and girls in school would come to me and make fun of me because of my nose. I suffered with this all through high school and the insecurity got worse and worse. I used to sit at home and try to push my nose down with my finger every single day to try and make my nose go flatter and smaller. I used to think about getting a razor blade at home, cutting the skin open and just shaving the bone on my nose down by myself. These thoughts were reoccurring. It would always get in the way in photos. I thought it was very masculine and I tried about 50 billion ways to contour it to make it look smaller but I just couldn’t contour it. I wanted a nose job ever since I started high school. The idea was always in my mind and I knew that once I was an adult I was going to save my money and get a nose job. I became obsessed with researching rhinoplasty and searching up before and after photos. I couldn’t wait to get one. This surgery changed the way I looked at every other one of my insecurities from that point on. Once I realised that no one actually even noticed that I got surgery or noticed my nose before the surgery - It proved to me that whatever insecurity I had from this point on I could accept with the power of my mind because I know it’s my own mind that’s creating these insecurities and it’s our own mind that has the power to stop ourselves from thinking like that and accept ourselves and actually learn to love those things about us. Firstly - when undergoing surgery, you’re always taking a risk when you choose to do it. You can never be 100% sure of the outcome. So you must be 1000% certain you want to get the surgery. I really think surgery, especially plastic surgery should be something you dwell on for a few years before you actually go and get it done. It’s a serious thing so you really need to be sure about it, because once it’s done you can’t go back. So ask yourself, is this truly what I want? With every inch, every part of my being - is this what I want? Even though social media and the trend of plastic surgery has made these procedures look very quick, very easy, with a beautiful, perfect result at the end…. I can tell you from experience it is far from it. My surgery was in December 2015. This surgery was probably the most intense thing I’ve ever experienced. Physically and emotionally. I woke up from my surgery with my face completely covered in bandages. My entire face and eyes were covered, all I could see was the mesh that was covering my eyes. After an hour of almost pure darkness a nurse came in and removed the bandages over my eyes so I could see - yay!! The rest of my face was still completely covered. I had a hard piece of plastic taped over my nose, 2 splints inside my nose and a bandage underneath my nostrils. Lets just say, I looked like a serial killer. I got to go home but I had to keep those bandages on my face for 2 weeks until my next check up. I did not leave my house, didn’t walk out my front door for those entire 2 weeks. I looked so terrifying that I didn’t want to scare anyone who was walking on the streets or that drove past me. My nose was constantly bleeding and I had to change the bandage under my nose every few hours. My eyes were completely bashed and bruised, I looked like a complete insane person. The splints inside my nose hurt and everything just sucked for those 2 weeks. The post surgery was the most uncomfortable experience ever. Whenever people ask me if they should get a nose job I always warn them of post op because it is no joke. It’s a very intense experience. After 2 weeks of being bandaged up and looking like Freddy Kruger, I got to go back and they were going to remove all the bandages and take the splints out. The removal of the splints was probably the most excruciatingly weird sensation I’ve ever felt in my life. It felt like they were pulling my brain out through one of my nostrils. It was really weird - but once they were out it felt amazing. I felt like a normal human again. I got to see my nose for the first time and I was so happy because it was straight! It was very swollen and fat and the doctor said it would take a few months for the swelling to come down. The full recovery time for rhinoplasty is 1 year. And can I say that I really didn’t take seriously the whole 1 year thing… because my nose swelling took about 6 months to a year to come slightly down. I absolutely hated the way I looked post op for about 3-6 months. Every day I looked at my nose and took pictures to try and compare and see if the swelling was going done and it just wasn’t… My nose was double the size It was before the surgery, it was so fat, wide and I look like mrs piggy. I was extremely depressed for the few months after my surgery, I did not want to go out, I didn’t want anyone to see me and no amount of makeup or contouring was doing the trick. I was really not sure that id made the right decision by getting the surgery. i hated it every day and I honestly didn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. After about 9-12 months in I started noticing the swelling had gone down and I started to love what It looked like. It is a very intense procedure and if you want to do it you must be certain you want to go through with it because its no joke. It’s a mental and physical journey and you must be ready for it. 2 and a half years post op and I love the results. I’m so confident with the way I look, I love myself and I love all the rest of my insecurities. It really taught me to respect what I have already and to inspire others to love themselves for who they are and how they look.