My Nose job Journey to become me
So... where do I begin?! It's the hardest thing i've ever had. Exactly 6 weeks ago today, I did something pretty big, something I’ve wanted desperately for almost 10 years. I finally got a nose job after years of absolutely despising my nose. Years of low self esteem and major confidence issues (despite regularly taking photos of myself, weird right?) - and I finally went and did it. Turns out you can buy confidence! Even though i'm still healing, the swelling has gone down considerably so I finally feel ready to announce it, something I really wanted to do. I've already seen such a huge difference in myself, for once in my life it finally doesn't cross my mind when I go out in public. It feels very strange for it not to be a problem anymore! I hope that I can inspire even a few others who have had self esteem issues and are considering surgery to help that.
I’m not sure I can really put into words how much it meant to me to fix my nose. I promised myself I would never get married until it was done; I said no to so many incredible opportunities simply because I was so insecure over it. The thought of someone else photographing/filming me from a bad angle gave me anxiety beyond words. I cried to my mum, I cried to my boyfriend, and I cried myself to sleep so many times over this. And the weirdest thing is, most people have no idea I even had a problem with my nose. When you hate something so much about yourself, the last thing you want to do is draw attention to it. So that’s exactly what I did for so many years – I rarely spoke about it, I didn’t tell many people how I felt, because I just didn't want people to notice it.
I was finally at a point in my life when I was sick of being insecure, worrying about it wherever I went. I was completely ready for it, and with no work or uni commitments, I could take as much time as I needed to recover, and of course, could actually afford to pay for it.
After years of researching into rhinoplasty, I decided to go with an amazing company called Wish Clinic & Beauty Istanbul, Turkey. My experience with them was perfect from start to finish, and in the next few weeks I’ll be documenting my whole nose job journey - from the first consultation, to pain, recovery, bruising and scarring - which I hope will help out those who are going through the same thing. Cosmetic surgery isn’t always about being “fake” – sometimes the issue is so deep that it literally changes your life once you get it done. Already I feel so much more confident in myself, which is something I haven’t felt, ever. I'm still months from being fully healed but I am super happy with the side profile, which was always my biggest hate!
I will update you all soon.